Alphabet Blog - C - Contentment

greediness is one of the human nature. we always have the WANT for something. one after another. sometimes we say "if only I can have xxx than I would be fine forever" or "that's all I wanted!!" they are lies. when people get what they wanted at the moment they soon will generate another want. it's very hard to be content.

maybe someone just want to be with someone, being friends would be all they ever wanted, they don't have write their name on that person, but some would want to chain a person they think they want and need with all the demanded promises and swears, not realising they're lucky enough to be with them

some just want to have no regrets in life, even if they made mistakes, chose wrongly they can still be happy with all they've got throughout the path they walked. but some would want to grab everything they can in life, and they would ended up with nothing in hand but grudges by the end of the day

some just want to relive with somebody important who had passed away, some would cry endlessly over things they want to do with them, some would keep living knowing they have shared memories, knowing how this taught them to say what they should have said at the moment given

it's tough to be content, but I'm learning how to, I'll keep learning as I have days on Earth before returning to dust.

Alphabet Blog - B - Buying things

Today I went to shop for an outfit for next week. Just got a blazer and have no luck in getting other clothing items although I have went to three different places and breathe in many polluted air, typical city air quality!
It is always like this, whenever you have a list of things that you wanna buy and you specifically go out for these, you always fail get them. Then you just wander around not looking for anything another time, you end up going home both hands occupied. I hate moments like this, especially when gift shopping, when I desperately want to buy the right things, they never came up. Then in other times I just spent a whole sum of money on things that I thought I would need but not at all.

Buying things is hard sometimes, or most of the times!

Alphabet Blog - A - Accept

June is here. A whole new month, I'm hoping just as I do when every month starts.

Accept.

I came back from my first solo exploration in London. I am so used to everything for being there three weeks straight. Now I find it hard to adjust to where I suppose to be. I realise I really have to accept things the way they are, I hate how it is like but I have to live with it. I am trying, hard. I started to accept myself a while ago and I feel better ever since. Now I have to accept something more. Choices, mistakes, problems that exist everywhere, I don't like them but they are part of my life and part of who I am so I am learning to accept all of these. I hope I can be more of what I am now.