-the one who have always been on my mind since I know you, the one I told myself zillions times that I should let go
Just because we don't talk anymore, doesn't mean I don't think of you. I think of you all the time, I miss you every moment I have. I keep my distance as I know I can't have you. You are now happy and you've moved on from your own torture of pain, I'm glad that you're now in a very nice state. I'm not going to deny that it hurts for me when you forgot about me. You said we would see each other again in the future, I hold on to your words, these particular words to make myself believe one day all these pains will go away when I get to see you again. A simple hi with your smile and you look right into my eyes, just like the first and very last time. I know this is hardly going to happen in my head but my heart cannot let go. I'm not in your life anymore, but you never left mine. You wouldn't notice what it all means to me as that special lucky person is all you have on your mind right now; I can see that you're going to fine just as I thought you would and told you so. Sadly, I'm not as okay as you said I would. I wish I could say these all to you but I wouldn't want to disturb you in your happy life, I would not be someone in your life anymore, not until you remember that I exist. I have a terrible time coping with all these, but I'll just wait, wait till I'll be okay, wait till that hoping would no longer hurt, wait till I'll someday cross your mind.